When I heard of this song the first time, I thought of him. But that was way too long ago, before you came into my life. Now, I am thinking of the present, and of the beautiful future I am about to face because of you, my dearest. Is it wrong to think of that–the future? I have always been telling you that I am traumatized by various events, and I know that you notice the fear behind the smiles I show. Though, music seems to calm me down; to say everything is all right… because you are there. Everything will be fine.
And yes. I remember those days when I thought I could not move on. I remember a time when I was crying over the matter. I knew I had no feelings for him, but the feeling of being rejected was just terrifying. That was why when I knew I had this strange sensation for you going inside of me, I wrote a blog entitled “Palinphilophobia” and the note where I wrote the lyrics of the chorus of “Rebound”.
“Sana’y, hindi na lang, pinilit pa, wala ring patutunguhan kahit sabihin ko pang mahal kita.” (I wish I never persisted. There’s no reason to continue even if I told you I love you.)
Then suddenly you came. You conducted therapies to me. Though you didn’t know how it felt when you said that I was pretty; I had no idea you liked me.
Every time I hear this part, I felt like crying. The memories where you would keep me in your arms was the scene in my mind. Indeed, it was so beautiful.
Yes, I know I already told you how much I love you. Sometimes when I stare at the nothingness of space, you would always ask me why, and I would just answer ‘nothing’, you would suddenly surprise me the warmth of your embrace. At times I just want to cry whenever I hear your heartbeat when I lie down upon your chest. You don’t know how nice it feels when your arms surround me like as if you were telling me to calm down and that no once could hurt me.
Even though many would think our relationship moved so fast; why, they do not know how long we waited for this moment.
Definitely. You know how much that line is true.
Never mind the past, I am already moved on. It’s the pain that I’m always pertaining to when I’m blogging, and I’m too happy now to reminisce how hurtful my past was. Remember how you told me that I was beautiful? That one day, there would be a person who would stay behind my back to protect me? That one day, I’d be happy?
Every time I write novels, you are the leading man that comes inside my head. I know how much happy you are that you found me, and so am I. I thought I would no longer find someone like you–a reason why I was so attached to you easily. As a matter of fact, I love loving you.